Meesh

Fuck A Formspring: 5 ?’s from @Hunnidthaire

1) What chu think about these hoes and lacefronts? Don’t that make you madd?
-The only thing that really bothers me about some lace front wigs are the hairline, sometimes it just looks terribly bad. When the whole idea of the lace front wig is for it to look authentic it kinda kills the concept to have the over dramatic Ashanti hairlines.

2) What are 3 favorite things you like about men?
hmm Facial Hair, hands and….the voice, penis would’ve been the bonus but moving on!I like the scruffiness of facial hair I could add more to that statement…but we gone two step on to hands. I’m a big woman so knowing I can be held properly and can feel secure is just something I love. I think its just obvious about the last two. If I can get moist from the hello -dies laughing- next question!

3) Do you think women should go ahead and have babies since usually by time we’re 30 and 40 we’re already established?
This is how I feel about this question. I don’t really believe in jumping into something before you’re actually ready for all the responsibilities that come along with it. I’m not about to just say every 20 something needs to just go out and start their families though.

4) How many tattooes u got?
Just one on my right calf of 3 skulls and 3 roses…

5) What are 3 difficult things that makes it hard for women to find men nowadays?
I’m clearly about to make this question all about me, not because I’m vain or anything. Fact is I can only speak for myself and thats just the way it is. Most men aren’t really ready to be committed (well at least the one’s I’ve encountered). Then there is the fact that after I disclose I’m celibate people aren’t too interested anymore. (yes damn it celibate even though I exercise my right to masturbate). Those sad facts and the fact that I have up every emotional wall imaginable makes it hard on anyone who sincerely wants to get to know me. I know that me being so guarded makes it hard for relationships to work and yet i cant help that. -shrugs-

Fuck A Formspring: 5?’s from @Gwanzo

My homie asked me some questions because she wanted me to blog so here they are! if you have some questions for me just ask me in the comments!

You know God will give us one murder…how do you want to commit your murder?
- I don’t know It would seriously depend on the situation. I mean I’m saving it for a self defense or something along those lines.

If you could tell someone something good or bad what would you tell them
-HMMMM Ok, I’d say we aren’t that cool I just NEED to keep tabs on you -sigh- or I’d say I wanna get to know more about you shit I’m all about everything that involves you but right now my mind is on fucking so just give me a moment to figure it out! (you can pick that apart and figure it out child)

if you won 100 million dollars what would you do with it
I’d do the usual (move get a car blah blah blah) but I’d travel and experience things. Also I’d eat rice soup because I’m not trying to wake up in the morning dead broke because I blew all my funding in a weekend. Investing and money management would be things I paid closer attention to.

what’s your dream GIRL like?
-laughs- I love the emphasis on girl, we don’t even need to discuss men because we already know what I’d say. Anywho! We’d share similar traits, the goofy sense of humor to where we can look at each other and just laugh. I’d say shes’ gorgeous but thats just a given and I didn’t want to seem like I was superficial. And she has a voice and isn’t afraid to express her opinions about things, keep shit interesting…

What makes masturbation great for you and what makes sex great for you?
-Well first and foremost a fresh pair of AAA batteries…no bullshit! I hadn’t had batteries in months so my “sessions” weren’t really satisfying. So with my toyfriend and my imagination all is well with masturbation. (I seriously wasn’t even trying and it rhymed) Sex is a little different, I haven’t had it in some years (no fucking lie) so I like don’t remember what made it “great” for me besides the orgasm. At this point though I’m pretty positive no one can get me off like I can.

My Competitive Nature…Or Lack There Of

Usually I feel as though if I can be myself then I won’t have to try too hard. If I can just be honest, open and real even in a sea of motherfuckers I can stand out. No matter how many times I tell myself that lie I know it isn’t true. Its easy for me to fade into the background and be unheard or unseen. Everything is a competition and I’m beginning to feel like I’m not cut out for any of it. Who I am just doesn’t feel like enough sometimes. Fact is I’m exhausted (mentally). I remember during this reading Gwanni gave me she pretty much said I need to sit down and decided if this what I want.

After some serious thought (and I’m sure I’ll think on it even more later) I’ve come to this conclusion. I’m not happy in my current situation but happy with the idea of what it could be. Happy with thoughts of having all the puzzle pieces fit for once. However I’m slightly miserable, which reminds me of my mother which makes me want to take 5 steps back. (this is NOT an entry on my mommy issues!) In all actuality I need to be focused on myself and school because this is like the one time in my life where everything feels right. I feel like I’m where I should be and I’d like to have a solid career I’m not getting any younger!

What thoroughly pisses me off is (note that I love that phrase) having to compete with individuals I consider my “friends”. I’m a good friend even to those I don’t really like but put up with. I’ll build you up, give you advice, listen to your musings, make you laugh, root for you, boost your ego. ALL I EXPECT IS ALL OF THAT IN RETURN! If you cant manage to give me what I give you then I’ll settle for some respect, fuck consideration even! I shouldn’t have to threaten to cut you to get those things, thats extreme #imjustsaying.

I also feel too annoyed with having to prove myself all the time. All this damn effort… I’m gonna find someone who appreciates how great I am, I hate having to second guess myself… shits gonna drive me nuts and I’m already on edge. -throws up hands and walks away-